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On Voting

I’ve been having an ongoing discussion with a friend about a candidate he thinks I should vote for. While I disagree with many of this candidate’s stances on certain issues, and agree with him on some other issues, I find myself defaulting to the argument that, really, whether this candidate wins the presidency or not (and it’s highly unlikely that he will) it really won’t matter. Ultimately, I’ve come to believe that voting doesn’t matter.

Trust me. I want to believe. And I know you do, too. And I certainly won’t attempt to dissuade you from voting. But ever since I voted for Ralph Nader. Twice. And had to endure the endless accusations that my vote for the candidate I sincerely felt most aligned with was a complete and utter waste and, essentially, a sabotage of all things American…I’ve been somewhat disillusioned. If voting on principle is a subversive act, doesn’t that make voting itself subversive?

I’ve always been of the opinion that voting is only part of the equation. That once politicians are voted into office, it’s our duty to hold them accountable for the promises they have made. However, what actually happens is that politicians get into office and are only accountable to the corporations that fund their next campaign. And while certainly in recent times, with the Citizens United ruling, the effects of a corporate stranglehold on our political process has become more visible, we really can’t pretend that this hasn’t been the standard all along. We are the complacent cowards, and religion is no longer the opiate of the masses – consumerism is.

And, to some extent, voting is. Which is why I felt a not-so-vague discomfort today at the Texas War On Women rally, as women from all over the state gathered to celebrate our power, and attempt to rev up a “movement” that has long since died. Every. Single. Speaker. urged the crowd of 1500 or so to vote! vote! vote! and countless canvassers roamed the crowd to beg support for one candidate or other who honest to god would then themselves vote! vote! vote! for women to regain the rights that have been slowly usurped by those who wish for us to remain enslaved by our reproductive organs.

I wanted to SCREAM – VOTING WON’T SAVE YOUR UTERUS! But by the time I had figured out why I was not feeling energized by such a large and vocal crowd, people were already dispersing for home, having fulfilled their quota of political activism by gathering in front of the capitol for two hours, listening to speeches, signing a dozen or so petitions, and listening to watered-down pop tunes that vaguely expressed the power of women in a not-too-terribly scary or offensive manner.

Thankfully, there were 30 or 40 of us in the crowd who were equally disenchanted with the whole thing and actually wanted to bring our concerns to the street. We all met out in front of those vaunted metal gates and took the streets, our voices but a shadow of the thousands who cheered for voting and asking for permission to change things. I know it’s not ladylike to be angry, but I was pissed. What’s the point of enfranchisement when we are all so disenfranchised? Our energy is so easily funneled into the institution of elections, where we are forced to choose the lesser of two evils and hope to Hell our consumer demographic is compelling enough for the corporations to invest in the legislation we desire. FUCK THAT SHIT! FUCK IT. Ladies, I don’t vote with my uterus – I FIGHT with it, and my feet and my fists and my heart and my soul and my MOTHERFUCKING BRAIN as I work with my brothers and sisters to create a new system within the old system.

Voting is a tool used by the ruling class to pacify us. To make us feel like we can make a difference with minimal effort and thought. Which is why there were no riot cops out today. There was no excessive amount of police patrolling the Capitol. They understood it was all ok, because we were playing by the rules of those in power. We were safely aligned with the system today. We weren’t challenging things. We were abiding by their rules in their space so they could say “Look – you had your freedom. We allowed you to gather and speak, because you used the language we want you to use.”

Never in the 6 months since I became actively involved in the occupy movement have I more fully understood the power of actually occupying space without asking permission, without inviting politicians, and without what is commonly referred to as a “list of demands” but is actually code for “a candidate to vote for, or an issue we can beg our elected officials to support.” And never have I been more thankful for the small but devoted group who straggled into the streets after the rally and shouted echoed, familiar refrains as we marched to our home at City Hall – where we gathered to practice real, participatory democracy in which every one of us has a voice, and every decision presents a real choice.

Mic check!

 

Mr. Friedman’s company Stratfor

is a private security firm

that government agencies pay

to gather “intelligence”

(and I use that term loosely)

on private citizens

exercising their rights

to free speech and assembly.

We are pleased that wikileaks

recently returned the favor

by releasing numerous leaked emails

about Stratfor’s activities

According to the leaked emails

-along with many other questionable activities-

Stratfor gathered information

from at least one Texas DPS officer

who was operating undercover

within the Occupy Austin movement.

 

We object to being spied on

by agencies who are paid

to serve and protect us.

We object even more

to private security firms

making money

by interfering with our rights

to assemble

and petition our government

for a redress of grievances.

 

Free speech and free assembly

are rights guaranteed

in our constitution

we object to attempts

to deter anyone

from exercising them.

 

 

Mr. Friedman

our freedom

is not your profit margin.

Our rights

are not for sale.

 

Mic Check!

We are the 99%

we will not be silent

about your crimes

against the populace

Occupy Austin!

Occupy SXSW!

Occupy Everywhere!

 

For more information:

http://wikileaks.org/the-gifiles.html

 

http://www.austinchronicle.com/news/2012-02-03/strange-bedfellows/

 

http://dissenter.firedoglake.com/2011/12/01/spy-files-published-by-wikileaks-detail-massive-international-surveillance-industry/

Mic check!

 

Mr. Friedman’s company Stratfor

is a private security firm

that government agencies pay

to gather “intelligence”

(and I use that term loosely)

on private citizens

exercising their rights

to free speech and assembly.

We are pleased that wikileaks

recently returned the favor

by releasing numerous leaked emails

about Stratfor’s activities

According to the leaked emails

-along with many other questionable activities-

Stratfor gathered information

from at least one Texas DPS officer

who was operating undercover

within the Occupy Austin movement.

 

We object to being spied on

by agencies who are paid

to serve and protect us.

We object even more

to private security firms

making money

by interfering with our rights

to assemble

and petition our government

for a redress of grievances.

 

Free speech and free assembly

are rights guaranteed

in our constitution

we object to attempts

to deter anyone

from exercising them.

 

 

Mr. Friedman

our freedom

is not your profit margin.

Our rights

are not for sale.

 

Mic Check!

We are the 99%

we will not be silent

about your crimes

against the populace

Occupy Austin!

Occupy SXSW!

Occupy Everywhere!

 

For more information:

http://wikileaks.org/the-gifiles.html

 

http://www.austinchronicle.com/news/2012-02-03/strange-bedfellows/

 

http://dissenter.firedoglake.com/2011/12/01/spy-files-published-by-wikileaks-detail-massive-international-surveillance-industry/

These are the events I will be playing Southby Roulette with tomorrow. Which ones I actually attend will be decided when I’m in the previous session. 

 

9:30 AM

Can Gaming Make the World Better?

Stand with Planned Parenthood: A Crisis Response

Material Change-Tackling Human Rights with Artists

The New Black? How Digital Ed is Everything

Fixing Broke(n) Governments Through Serious Games

Tech Detox: Can You Survive a Day w/o Technology?

Food Trucks Share Social Media Tips

The Mind & Consciousness As an Interface

Make a Kinection: The Future of Interactive Design

11 AM

The Nick Denton Interview: The Failure of Comments

21st Century Giving: Social Philanthropy’s Rise

Community Regeneration Through Digital Literacy

Mother Goose Got Punked: Next Gen Visual Stories

A New Culture of Learning: Gaming, Tech, Design

Out of This World Engagement

Vote4Geeks: Why Techies Should Run for Office

The Rise of Brooklyn Food Scene

Open Source & the Changing Tech Landscape

We the People: Creating a Consumer’s Bill of Rights

Driving the Change: Public Media Goes Transmedia

12:30 PM

Optimism: The Ultimate Revolutionary Act

Curing a Rage Headache: Internet Drama & Activism

Right to Be Forgotten: Forgiveness or Censorship?

No Brochures: Digital Storytelling for Nonprofits

Designing Positive Daily Addications

Public Lab: Mapping, DIY Activism & Civic Science

But Hasn’t Politics Always Been Social?

Crowdsourcing Government: Why Access Matters

How to Run a Social Site and Not Get Users Killed

Open Art, Open Audiences: The Edinburgh Festivals

Better Food Through Open Data Standards

Social Media is a Bubble and SXSW is a Fad

Turning Slacktivism into Online Activism

Once & Future King: Can Syndication Save Content?

2 PM

Ambient Location and the Future of the Interface

3:30 PM

Design, Build, Transform

White Space: Shaping Nothing for Clean Design

Preserving the Creative Culture of the Web

The Smart Grid is Inseperable from the Internet

Discardia: More Life, Less Stuff

Oh, the Places You’ll End Up Hanging Around

Funny or Die: Future of Comedy & Everything Else

The UnCollege: Learning Outside University

Reprogram Your Yard, Then Eat it

Data is the New Oil: Wealth and Wars on the Web

The Power of Contemplative Play

Video Games: The Supreme Court and What’s Next

5 PM

How Is Internet Helping People Make Their Own Laws

The Infinite Resource: Growth on a Finite Planet

Reinventing the Graphic Novel for the iPad

Hacking the Citizen Experience

4-Hour Work Week is BS: Truths of Working Smarter

Austin 2032: Shaping Future Cities with Mobile Data

Don’t Just Sell Things: Change the World

Security and Privacy in Social Networks

On the Internet, Everyone Knows You’re a Dog

How to Personalize Without Being Creepy II

6 PM

Geo Interfaces for Actual Humans

 

After all of this, at 8:30 PM, I will be attending the vigil for Byron Carter at the intersection of 8th and I-35, on the east side (northbound) of the highway. For more information about this event, see here.

My plan for sxswi is to target panels of interest and then go wherever my day leads me. If you are here, you can find me at @drublood on twitter, or email me (drublood@gmail.com) for other contact information. I’d love to meet up and chat! Here’s what I have targeted for today:

11 AM

The Start-Up of YOU

The Power of Fear in Networked Publics

The Most Wanted Unusual Suspect: Markia Zuckerberg

Making Stories: Libraries & Community Publishing

A Conversation with Joss Whedon

Reflections of a Zen Digital Nomad

Big Social Media Results at Small Organizations

12:30 PM

HTML5 and CSS3: Does Now Really Mean Now?

The Great Library Swindle: Your Rights Are At Risk

Do People Really Want Participatory Government?

Building Community Engagement Around Open Content

SOPA Media Coverage Dissected

Is Social Media a Human Right?

Creative Energy: Renewing the Fight for Renewables

All of the Late Break + Future15 in Texas Ballroom 1-3 @ the Hyatt

Multiple Personalities – Not a Disorder but the Norm

Shoebox Full of Photos: Beyond Digital Storage

Cloudy with a Chance of Gaming

Crowd Sourcing Community Projects Like Tom Sawyer

2 PM

Keynotunde!!!!!

3:30 PM

The Secret Life of Links

Catch Me if you Can: Frank Abnagale 10 Years Later

?uestlove: Social Media for Minority Mindshare

Read/Write Library: Mapping a City Through Media

Communities of Transparency: Open Data in Action

Winning the Story Wars

Why Doesn’t Congress Grok the Internet?

Decentralized Organizations: Do They Work?

The Secrets and Surprises of DIY Promotion

Crowdsourcing Science

The Curators and the Curated

Rise of the Indie Web

5 PM

The View From Inside Rainn Wilson’s Brain

The Wars of Tech

Abundance: The Future is Better Than You Think

Binary Bitches: Keeping Open Source Open to Women

A Carlin Home Companion

The Public is Present: Exhibition Subsites at MoMA

Beyond SOPA/PIPA Moving Forward w Engine Advocacy

Screw the Job Market: Young + Passionate =/= Broke

Welcome to the Chaos: The Distributed Workplace

Erasing Lines Between Physical and Digital Worlds

Crowd Sourced & Collaborative Story-Writing

How to Break Through the Noise with Great Events

Games 4 Change: Great Power, Great Responsibility

Reporters & Evangelists: Politics of Online News

 

…Not sure if I will be attending any evening events this year…

On not giving a fuck

Some high school acquaintances have started a Facebook group about their (I guess, our) high school experiences. It’s strange. When I think back to high school, I remember myself as someone who truly did not care what anyone thought of me. I had a few very strong friendships with friends from all around the Chicago area who I met at a teen dance club, even fewer close friends at school, and I had vague impressions of my classmates as people who existed in a totally different reality as mine, but not in a judging way. I wasn’t the sneering kind of punk rock kid. And for one who didn’t do drugs or drink, I spent most of my youth in such an ethereal, gauzy haze of confused yet convicted oblivion that I might as well have been stoned. In my yearbook, people I barely knew would tell me they admired me for “being myself.” I was always confused by that. Who else would I be?

I’m not even sure when I learned to be self-conscious. All I know is as I get older, I find myself feeling more and more pressured to be someone that I am not. I forget the lesson I was born knowing and have been taught to disbelieve. In my life, high school was a breeze. I didn’t feel any sense of pressure to be someone I wasn’t. That didn’t come until later. I put it off for a very long time. I’ve spent almost my entire life cultivating a lifestyle in which I feel completely at ease with myself in every situation I am in. Until very recently. I’m not even sure what knocked me off track. Is it the job? I love what I do for a living, but I’m currently responsible for a lot more than I ever thought I would be responsible for in terms of a career. To be honest, I never thought I would use the term “career” to describe how I make a living. Is it the kids? I never saw myself as a parent while I was growing up. Is it just me feeling anxious because I’m an anxious person? Perhaps. Whatever the reason, I find myself more and more having to consciously remind myself that I don’t have to give a fuck what people think of me. Steering myself back to center. Forcing myself to regain that sense of un-self-consciousness I once, unselfconsciously contained.

Reading posts from people I shared a parallel high school universe with is such a great blessing. It wasn’t necessarily a happier time…but it was a time of incredible clarity of simplicity for me. It’s good to be reminded of that.

I’m feeling really frustrated tonight. I wanted to go to an event being hosted by an organization whose cause I support. So I went. Made it all the way to the door of the hipster bar at which the event was supposed to take place. Saw the crowd of mostly young, mostly white, mostly (apparently) upper middle class, mostly males…and I just couldn’t deal with it. Not only did the venue drive me away, but it really pissed me off.

Stop. I know what you are about to say “But there were SOME wimminandminorities there! I don’t know what your problem is. You are just being too picky.” That might be the case…but you can bet that if I felt uncomfortable enough after going to the venue and actually walking in the doors to turn around and leave…I’m certain there are people who did not even go at all. I’m not trying to knock your cause. I still believe very strongly in your cause, in fact. But I do think you need some guidance here…if you care what I think. Which you might not. I mean, I’m having a difficult time believing that such smart people haven’t thought of this shit already, but…you know…it’s sometimes startling how unaware people are of their own privilege.

So, all that said, I’d like to offer a few suggestions for organizations that would like to be as inclusive as possible.

1. Be mindful of the location of the venue: think about things like parking (for those who might have disabilities), bus lines, and the socioeconomic region in which the venue is located.

2. Be mindful of the cost of the venue: Seriously…do I need to elaborate?

3. Uh, if you want women to participate in your event. Seriously. Don’t hold your event in a venue that is known for its hot chicks in knee socks waitstaff: Yes, I am sure there are women who don’t mind the hot chicks in knee socks. In certain contexts, I’m actually a huge fan. I also happen to know a guy who likes to have his balls twisted…that doesn’t mean all men (or all women) are up for it all of the time or in all contexts. Chances are you are excluding more than you are attracting.

4. Check the music: If you want to hold an inclusive event, mix it up. Don’t play only one artist or one style. This actually reminds me of a group of well-meaning parents at a local school I’m involved with who put on an old-school dance with soul music in hopes of getting more parents to the campus. The only problem is that the majority of parents at the school are Mexican. Not to say that there aren’t Mexicans who enjoy old-school soul, but, you know…mix it up!

5. Put up signage at the venue to illustrate where the event is being held, or at least ask if the staff at the venue will direct people to the proper location: Especially if one or many of the above are unavoidable – being welcomed and directed when you walk in can circumvent awkward frustration for someone who already feels out of place.

Look, I know it’s tempting, if you are a nerd, to want your organization to be associated with hip cool places where hip cool people hang out. I don’t mean to impose a “tyranny of the minority” on you or anything, and I don’t mean to be a chicks-in-knee-socks buzzkill…but if you are associated with a group of people who have a notoriously difficult time including wimminandminorities – if you don’t at least consider the comfort of wimminandminorities and, instead, choose venues that potentially make wimminandminorities uncomfortable – it’s going to look like you are INTENTIONALLY excluding wimminandminorities. In fact, if you don’t intentionally INCLUDE wimminandminorities, you will most likely end up excluding us.

Thanks.

P.S. Feel free to leave your suggestions in the comments. 🙂

An old friend found this in a chapbook I sent to him…this is probably 1990ish? I’m guessing. I’m not sure what zine this was published in, but I’m pretty sure I said those words. It seems like a really long time ago. I keep looking at the stack of Lorri Jackson books on my bookshelves and thinking maybe it’s time to finally publish Scat. I was scared to publish it right after she died, because I didn’t like all of the bullshit controversy about her death. I wanted her words to stand on their own, and not be the words of a tragic dead poet. I don’t know, though. She might have liked that.

Regardless, I’m doing a lot of thinking about these little projects I used to do. At this stage in my life, I feel like I am overly focused on my career and not focused enough on anything else in my life that enriches me. I’m sure more compromise could be made to make room for more self-expression (and the aiding and abetting of others’ self-expression.)

Enjoy…

Circo

Saw this flick at the new Violet Crown Cinema. I thought the cinematography was lovely – both raw and beautiful. I loved that there were shots of the gorgeous landscapes of rural Mexico as well as the run down villages, and dusty roads. The family was engaging, honest, hilarious, and sad.

This was a different take on circus life from the Circus series on PBS. Rather than focusing on the social class hierarchy of a medium-sized circus, they focused on the familial struggles within a small, family-run circus. In my opinion, the director did a great job of portraying the struggles honestly and without judgment, forcing the viewer to decide what to feel/think about the various topics of child labor, poverty, education, the treatment of animals, and alternative lifestyle choices that were presented. I had a difficult time choosing sides in the struggle over the family. While the children seemed to work very hard, there were evident rewards of that work, as well as risks. I guess the reason these sorts of documentaries are so fascinating to me is they hyperbolize all of the different small choices we make on a daily basis that go with or against the grain of mainstream life. There are consequences either way. Both the circus and the life “en casa” are portrayed as cages by different people and at different times in the movie. In fact cages and chains seem to be a recurring theme throughout the film, with varying degrees of intensity.

This is the kind of film that forces you to laugh, simply because the interactions are universal, even though the context is specific. And, occasionally, that laughter quickly turns on you and forces you to consider what creates the context. Is the family in the circus business out of choice, or necessity? Are they really driven by the desire to create art, or the need to pay the creditors? And…are the children in this circus any more exploited than children in any region who are forced to work hard to help support the family? How does economic disparity play into the choices that are made?

I recommend it, but don’t count on feeling particularly uplifted at the end of it.

I am reading an old issue of a high school classmate’s zine, and I found an editorial I wrote that I didn’t recognize as mine (although I agreed with the content) until I got to the end of it. I am particularly relating to this now, as I battle yet again to explain the LIFESTYLE choice of homeschooling as a completely different educational model than public schooling (e.g. Homeschooling, even homeschooling with curricula and a degree of structure, is not meant to mirror the public, or even private, school system, but rather is meant to allow for flexibility, freedom, context and individualized assessment.) Anyway, I was probably 18 or 19 when I wrote this, and it was good to get a reminder of the roots of my educational philosophy) Here it is:

I see a lot of people in the underground who are angry with, and are constantly questioning where all of the apathy comes from. Well, I’ve pondered this and actually reached a few answers, which, of course, does not SOLVE the problem, but at least it may provide a little insight…

First of all, take a look at an institution that the majority of American children are forced to attend for 9 months out of the year EVERY year until they are 16 years old. Yes, school…think about it. From the moment you finish your carefree colouring [yes, I spelled coloring that way when I was younger. I listened to way too much British anarchopunk. hahaha] days in kindergarten until that final final exam and diploma/degree from whichever you select to be your exodus of education, you are force-fed ‘knowledge’ from self-proclaimed gods and experts. Not only are many truths left out of the public curriculum, but school tends to emphasize that oh, so capitalistic IDEAL called competition. From the moment you hear the words GPA and class rank, your skin tingles with the excitement of the hunt. I mean, even such a fun activity as softball or volleyball is mutated into some vile form of sport where the thrill goes to the victor and defeat is far more than losing a game. Think about the classroom atmosphere; we are taught, and quite gullibly believe that teachers don’t want us to help each other with homework, simply because we won’t learn as much if we rely on someone else, but come on! Wouldn’t it be far better if we were allowed to congregate and teach each other rather than sit like church members praising their deity of mathematics or US History?

I’ve read countless articles in underground publications about how anarchy is so misunderstood AND I WONDER WHY. Not only is anarchy a seemingly forbidden topic in the public school system, but Webster’s second definition of the word is “utter confusion.” Not to mention that MANY high school students that I encountered in my turbulent 3.5 years there seemed to think that the prime definition of communism was “those damn russkies”–and, in fact, I was the target of many a hurled “commmie pig” which, personally, I find much more appealing of a nickname than “greedy capitalist pig.” Face it, anarchy, communism — they simply are unheard of at the high school level. Is it because we are too immature at that level, or perhaps because that is the level on which most of us form our life-lasting opinions and they want to be sure to drive that “democracy is king” [today me would define “democracy” as “capitalist democracy”] bullshit home before we do something unpatriotic like research another, perhaps even a BETTER form of existence or interaction.

I even had a teacher in high school who forbade me to use underground publications as a source of reading material…you know the kind of assignment: you take one of those fluff courses like Advanced Reading, and the teacher tells you to read and crituque a magazine article every week, assigning a specific topic for each week. That week, it was health, so I chose an article from a pub’n that was in some kind of section called censored news articles or something. The article was about AIDs. The teacher took one look at the magazine, called me up to her desk, and told me she wouldn’t accept the critique because this wasn’t a “class” magazine…she said that she would allow me to hand in an alternate article the next day. The next day, I handed in a two-page essay on the underground and the literature produced there. She was miffed, QUITE. [If I remember right, I actually was forced to sit in the hall for the remainder of the class…which was the most severe punishment I ever faced as a goody two-shoes student.] So, the next week, when we had to hand in a sports article, I pored over every single issue of Sports Illustrated in my brother’s room and finally found the perfect burn. That week, I used an article on rhinoceros hunting. It was, of course, acceptable because it was from SI. Nyeesh.

It’s scary, but true, that those dumbfucks in my sociology class who answered “strongly agree” to the statement “‘my country right or wrong’ is always a good motto” are the MAJORITY. These are the people who, if we don’t get off our rears and offer alternative sources of knowledge, literature, whatever, will go on being so blind and elect our future leaders…become our future business owners…RUN OUR FUTURE SCHOOL SYSTEMS…the paradox continues.

“United we will stand and divided we will fall. Unless we work together, no change will come at all…” -Flux of Pink Indians

Still thinking, still questioning, still LIVING life,

Lainie (the oyster)